"You Are Experiencing Spring."

"You are experiencing spring." Those were God's words to me. Simple and sweet. 

God has been showing me that change doesn't have to be a bad thing. Change is something that scares me. I don't like the unknown so I worry. "Trust Me." I try. I'm learning to trust and I'm learning to not be so worrisome about change. So when God compared my experiencing change to something as beautiful as spring, it changed my perspective a bit. 

"Change takes time. Spring doesn't all happen at once." I'm learning to wait in a time of in between. Not yet started or finished. When I don't see immediate results, I get worried. But the time in between can be beautiful if I find the beauty in it. The transfer from winter to spring is a wonderful thing. It's exciting and with it comes a clean slate. Everything is new and hopeful. 

So I wait.

And wait.

And wait...

... And I start to get worried and lose hope. But then God comes and comforts me and whispers to me "I've got you sweetheart." So I take a deep breath and look around. I notice the little things. Like a beautiful sunset or rainstorm. Music. Books. Dance. Clouds. Sunshine.... Wildflowers. I am a wildflower. And right now I'm just now poking my head up from the dirt. So I remember God's words, "You are experiencing spring." and I know I'm going to make it just fine.

"You are my beautiful wildflower. Continue to grow in me."

Love Not Like

I believe you can love someone with a special set apart love, but not like them. It's this odd feeling of "eeerrrrrggggggggg you irritate me!!! Drop dead..." but also "Tell me if you hurt, why you hurt, how you hurt. I want to know and I was to make it better!" It's so strange because these feelings so contradict each other.

I am going through these strange feelings at this exact moment. Something that I've found is that often, these feelings will arise because what that person is going through is similar in someway to something you're going through, or have gone through. Often a characteristic that someone has that irritates the heck out of you... Is something that you struggle with as well, in some way.

So I believe God puts these feelings of love and compassion in you so that you can love this person in situations where others may not.

Don't get me wrong! You. Do. Not. Have. To. Be. Best. Friends. With. This. Person!!!!! But all those times that that person pops up in your mind throughout the day, pray for them. I'm telling you!! For a while, every time this person popped up in my mind I would think ugly thoughts and how much I was upset at that person, but praying for them... MUCH more peaceful and fulfilling. It makes me hopeful and calm.

So don't let that love go to wast. Let God love through you.

Philippians 1:6 He who began a good work in you with be faithful to complete it.

Food for Thought

If someone brings you down, makes you feel bad about yourself, does not make you happy in any little way, and is not a necessary person in your life, do not make them a priority in your life. I mean, there are DEFINITELY some cases where God will put you in someone's life and them in yours to allow us to learn something and to maybe bless or be blessed. Sometimes it's really funny (and maybe a little frustrating) who God will put in your life to love, and no matter how much you want to hate that person, God puts that love inside you. But that being said, there is a time for everything and when the time of having that person in your life has ended, you have to be willing to let go (which can be a very hard and painful thing to do) so that God can bring something or someONE new and better into your life. Being able to let go is so important. And being able to love even when you want to hate someone who has hurt you is even more important.

So yeah... that's my food for thought from God on this lovely night as I sit here with my tea, my journal, and the sunset.

Philippians 1:6 He who began a SPLENDID work in you WILL be FAITHFUL to COMPLETE it.

Free

We're all a little crazy aren't we?
Even the most logical person has a free and silly side.
Even the most grown up have the inner voice of a child telling them to not worry so much.

We all know someone who is so silly and crazy and adventurous and... free. I don't know about you but I love those people! They make me want to be less logical and less of a worrier. Those that know me know me know that I'm quite the logical person.... all the time... Which can be good but also can hinder true happiness, joy and freedom. One of my biggest prayers is for God to teach me to be free. And I'm learning bit by bit.

Some ways to be free and happy:

1. Travel

2. Spend time with people you love and care about

3. Not worry so much about details

4. Eat good food

5. Hug (a lot)

6. Dance in the rain

7. Explore

8. Trust

9 Sing (even if it's off tune)

10. Call someone up you haven't seen in a while

11. Not worry so much what others think

12. Learn to accept change and the good that comes with it

13. Spend time with people who make you laugh

14. Read

15. Remember to keep those who bring you higher, teach you much, make you happy close, and those who don't, be willing to let them go

16. Write

17. Exercise

18.  Learn

19. Try new things

20. Most importantly, pray


I continue to learn everyday. It's not an easy process, but one worth while.

Philippians: 1:6 He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete and perfect it.